Currently, well for awhile I have felt stuck and in transition. I tackle one idea and move onto the next thing with tons of distractions I have taken myself away from what I have really wanted for a long time; a Baby.
My husband and I have tried for 5 years now. Currently doing IVF. We have tried on and off because I have used many things such as over volunteering at the school, writing a book, purchasing houses for rental properties etc to distract myself. My husband has recently given me permission to just focus on having a baby. I guess it wasn’t permission but the words I needed to hear. To be okay taking care of myself each day and our home and children and not worry about my next career move or project. I am not used to this space. Currently my nutrition business isn’t aligning with my energy. I love my life, can’t believe I am able to live this way; financially worry free with a supportive husband but feel guilty and uneasy everyday for some reason. Any guidance would be great. Thank you!
Signed, Susan
Dear Susan,
You are being given a beautiful gift of self discovery. Take it just say yes! It feels like this child and the gift from your husband is providing you with the space of creating a “Self Love” child. This is you, allowing yourself to focus on just you, and understanding who you are and how you are meant to share your gifts in the world (ok… that last part may not seem like it makes sense right now, but it will in a little while).
You see, the only thing standing in your way is you.
And as you reflect back (and you mentioned in your letter), you’ve kept choosing other things as being more important. And now you have the chance to make you, your happiness, and your love of self your true focus. Leap at it, embrace it. It is yours to enjoy and discover.
You will learn so much about yourself (and this can be uncomfortable at times, but so worth it) and the baby that is aching to be born inside of you. This child will be your biggest teacher yet. You will discover how to love more, live more, play more and be an ambassador for this in the world (if you so desire 🙂
Your current business focus plays a big part in how you move ahead (down the road). It’s provided you with a foundation for you to share your new self-discoveries. So many people think of food when they think of Nourishment, but you’ll be able to open the conversation up to so much more, how to truly nourish all of you- mind-body and soul.
You are about to take on the most important project in your life: loving you.