When there is something big for us on the horizos, another level to overcome or achieve, one of two things typically happen. Either we take it on- head on, or we avoid it. I have to confess, I’ve been avoiding something big.
I’ve known for years that I’m being called to go even deeper in my spiritual journey. I know that while I know a lot, that I know even more than I realize. I can be in nature and have this sense that there is so much there that I already have the knowledge of, and that I just need to remember.
I feel a connection with the plants. With the trees. With the animals. I’ve talked to the gnomes in the forest near my home. Even though I know I’m safe there, safe to wander deep into the forest, I know the trails quite well. I’m afraid to do it on my own because of the fear of coyotes in my community. So I stay away from the forest when I’m by myself, even though she beckons me to play.
I’ve had deer within 5 feet from me, calmly eating while checking me out. My heart was racing, yet so grateful for that time of connection.
I’ve had chickadees feed from my hand and my backyard full of dozens of butterflies. I have had a red tail hawk look at me through my bedroom window when I created an altar in my bedroom.
Nature speaks to me and wants me to understand her language more fluently. And I know it will be easy, but part of me is afraid.
I’m afraid of what lies ahead. I’ve already had some pretty incredible and strange spiritual experiences. It’s taken me time to come out of the spiritual closet. I’ve spoken with people who have had even stranger experiences than me and I’ve heard how weird it can get.
And even as I write this, I feel like it’s not so weird, it’s perfectly natural. And it’s enlightening and freeing. It feels like what awaits me on the other side of “going deeper” is fun light and easy, not dark heavy and weird.
And I think that is what is true for a lot of us. Whatever it is that we are avoiding, is because we’re focusing on the negative aspects of what Could happen, rather than being open to the joyful possibilities of what can arise.
So, please, consider this an invitation to take another look at what it is that you are avoiding. Take two minutes to write down what could possibly happen if you finally tackle what you are avoiding. Let it all out- the good, the bad and the ugly. Then for everything on the “bad and ugly list” write down the opposite (if it isn’t already on your good list). For instance, if one of the “bad” things that could happen is “no one will believe me,” then add to your “good” list “everyone will believe me.”
When you shift your perspective on what you are avoiding, you will see that things are not nearly as glum as you think it will be. Then you start to be open to taking on what you are avoiding. You begin to see it for the growth opportunity it really is.
The universe presents to us what we are ready for. If you feel like you’re being called to do something, now’s the perfect time to answer that call.